There are times in my life when everything seems relatively stable. I’m organized and content. Life is good. Peaceful. It feels as if I have everything together. There’s time to exercise, garden, bake, complete all my paperwork (never ending!), and do what I really love to do — write.
Then there are times when I’m frazzled. Like now. I have to give more attention to issues with our businesses, our daughters, our home. Life gets in the way. It can’t always be simple. That’s not necessarily a bad thing. It’s just different. I have to be flexible. But I struggle with that.
My husband, two daughters, and I are leaving soon to go out of the country for a family wedding. I know, it sounds wonderful, and it is! But I can’t believe the amount of anxiety I’ve had. I love to travel, but have to admit it’s unsettling to me. Especially going out of the country. We’ll be thousands of miles from home. I can literally feel my blood pressure rise as I think about unforeseen problems. Will our plane be delayed? Will we like the food? Will any of us get sick? I hope and pray we stay safe, healthy, and happy.
And what if something bad happens here at home? To my parents? Our dog? Our family? Our businesses?
I can drive myself crazy with worry. My husband and I have prepared for any imaginable issue. We’ve done everything possible to ensure a smooth vacation. Logically I know all this stress is for nothing. It happens to me every time we plan a trip. Then we have a great time away, and everything is fine at home. I get mad at myself for getting so worked up. All that wasted, negative energy.
For the past month, as we’ve been getting ready for our trip, it seemed as if every time I sat at the computer to write a blog post or read blogs I follow, something else took precedence. Frustrating. But necessary.
This got me thinking. Life ebbs and flows. The seasons change, literally. But so do the seasons of our lives. Some months or years are calm, while others are filled with chaos. These hectic times can be good or bad. When caring for my young daughters, I was so busy I could hardly think straight. But it was the most wonderful, loving, fun, and fulfilling part of my life.
Nothing lasts forever. I often think of the phrase, “This too shall pass.” I used to think it referred to times of extreme worry, sadness, and pain. But it also applies to the beautiful and perfect days.
So right now, I’m busier than usual. And that’s okay. I take deep breaths and try to relax. Most important, I’m going to enjoy this special time with my family. We’re going on an amazing adventure together, and I can’t wait.
I’ll be sad when our trip is over. We’ll have thousands of pictures and memories. I will enjoy every single, precious moment. Because this too shall pass.
First image courtesy of: http://www.forbes.com/sites/davidhochman/2014/09/03/fall-foliage-drives-worth-flying-for/
Second image courtesy of: https://wtmcclendon.wordpress.com/2013/11/05/keep-calm-and-carry-on/