This Is Me

When the sharpest words wanna cut me down

Last weekend my husband and I went to see The Greatest Showman. I  loved the music and smiled nearly the entire movie. There was one song that really got my attention. It was performed by the “misfit” characters in the circus show.

I am not a stranger to the dark
“Hide away,” they say
“‘Cause we don’t want your broken parts”
I’ve learned to be ashamed of all my scars
“Run away,” they say
“No one’ll love you as you are”

These words can be applied to everyone’s lives at one time or another. No one is perfect. We all have things we don’t like about ourselves.

It might be a physical feature, like my thick, wavy hair that gets too frizzy (the straightener is my friend!) or the lines on my face as I age.

Or it can be an attitude or behavior we’d like to change. I eat pretty healthy, but do I eat healthy enough? Do I exercise enough? Am I smart enough? Pretty enough? Am I enough?

Or that imperfection could be a physical or mental illness. Like my anxiety and panic attacks.

Those hardships help shape us into the people we are. It’s what makes us, us. We’re all different, and that truly is what makes this life so rich, interesting, and beautiful.

You are

Our trials, sorrow, and pain, (also our joys and successes) bless us with compassion and  kindness.

There’s no doubt in my mind that because of what my family and I have been through with mental illness, I’m more empathetic than I would’ve been otherwise.

My mom had anorexia and depression, and my daughters and I have struggled with anxiety. I know how hard it is to watch a loved one deal with a mental health condition. And I know how scary and lonely it feels to experience panic symptoms and not want to tell anyone because of embarrassment and shame.

I’ve been there, I know.

We’re on this earth to share our gifts and talents, to love, and to help others. Going through difficult times is part of learning who we are and who we want to be.

Accept and embrace your whole self, including — especially including — your differences. You’re a gift to this world. Exactly the way you are.

Look out 'cause here I come

30 thoughts on “This Is Me

  1. Thank you for this beautiful post!
    My youngest has suffered from anorexia and depression. It is hard, very hard. Thankfully much better now, but still its not something that just goes away like a cold or even a broken leg.

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    • Thank you so much! I’m sorry about your youngest. It’s so hard to watch our children suffer and mental illness is difficult because it’s not clear cut and simply finished by a certain date. With medication and healthy habits, I’ve recovered. But I know that the anxiety/panic attacks can still come back, I’m not forever cured. So it’s hard. All the best to you and your family!

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  2. Hey Jeni..I tried to leave a comment on your post but it said I couldn’t until I log in?? Anyway..just want to say this is marvelous! Olivia and I loved the movie too! So great..and a great reminder about the power of our imperfections. ❤

    On Thu, Jan 18, 2018 at 2:52 PM, Peace from Panic wrote:

    > jennymarie4 posted: ” Last weekend my husband and I went to see The > Greatest Showman. I enjoyed the music and smiled nearly the entire movie. > There was one song that really got my attention. It was performed by the > “misfit” characters in the circus show. I am not a strange” >

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    • Hi Tracey! Thanks so much! And hmm, I’m not sure what the problem was with logging in to leave a comment. I saw it in my comment section, so no worries. The movie was a lot of fun! I added a couple of the songs to my spotify playlist, and love them! xx

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  3. A beautiful post Jenny.
    I lost my closest friend to Anorexia many years ago and I’ve battled my own issues of anxiety and panic attacks over the years so I know full how they shape us into the people we are. Thank you for this uplifting post.
    I’m looking forward to seeing The Greatest Showman, it sounds fabulous. xo

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    • Thank you Miriam, I appreciate your kind words. I’m sorry about the loss of your friend. It can be so hard when struggling with a mental health condition. But you’re right, they help shape us into the people we become. And yes, see the movie! xx

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  4. I have been going on this film since I saw it for the first time (had to watch it twice, it’s amazing!) …both the film and the songs have such a powerful message, especially this song….brings tears to my eyes every time! ❤
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    x

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  5. I loved it, but more importantly, so did my partner. I say that because I have a habit of taking him to see ‘duff’ movies, and he just sits there squirming, vowing never again. Glad I made a good judgement call!

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